My last blog from July 14th was that Jen and I would not break up over trying to conceive and here we are...broken up!
As I read back through the events of the past year, I should've re-read it a little deeper.
Let's recap the fall of Jen & Keri one last time before I close the book on "2012: The Year My World Ended"
January: Fallout over saving money. Jen wants careful planning before we pursue this further.
February/March: Too busy with drama
April: All my drama stipend goes to living room makeover
May: Jen does two new store openings and a switch is flipped in her...she becomes independent and secretive...something is up.
June: Jen pulls away a little more, has been sleeping on the couch siting "can't sleep". I approach the idea of a home donor kit with BJ or purchase a cheaper vile. She half-heartedly agrees to the kit.
July: Jen continues to sleep on the couch, huge fallout over money again leads to budget talk and separate bank accounts. There is no intimacy (except a quicky on July 4th). She has no desire to spend family time. Try the kit, without her help. No baby again!
August: Distance continues until I finally fall apart on our anniversary. "I Won't Give Up" plays one night which leads to our first conversations. She claims "We've grown apart" "It's not you it's me" and "She doesn't think she wants a baby" (8/11)
September: I am forced to give her time and space...it sucks...I fall apart
October: Things seem like they are getting better but she stops wearing her ring. We have a talk and officially break-up (10/27)
November: Jen admits (in a heated discussion) that she warned me this baby thing was consuming me over a year ago and I was the one who gave up.
December: I plead for a second chance. She said it's too late and she needs a change. She can't promise anything but will always care for me.
So, 2012 can kiss my ass. Here I sit alone, in a house I may have to give up, the love of my life gone (well, converted to roommate status) and no baby.
